stepping stone🪨

You know what? Never in my wildest dream, dare to dream to enter into big firm.

Bukan takde keinginan tu.

But, sedar diri. CGPA biasa-biasa. Curricular biasa-biasa. Volunteerism pun biasa-biasa. Takde apa nak dibanggakan oleh sosok tubuh seorang Mirza ni.

Itulah one of big factor kenapa aku reluctant to apply at big firm.

Pulaknya Mirza ni kan time awal-awal dulu mindset dia takmau practice law, so the transition daripada tiada cita-cita kepada bercita-cita besar took me quite some time.

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Career gap period lepas long call sampai dapat offer kerja tu pressure dia masha Allah. Rasa ruang-ruang waktu kosong lepas tu sangat tak berguna. Rasa uselesss...sian ummi baba kena tanggung biawak hidup yang seorang ini 🥲

Masa sedang job hunting tu la, my mind shifted. Rasa nak cabar diri sendiri. Nak keluar dari comfort zone.

"If your dream didn't scares you, you didn't dream big enough," kekdahnya.

Sebenarnya, duduk di small firm, takdela 'comfort zone' sangat, the idea of applying and being into new office even small firm is equivalently scary je. Cumanya, level cuak tu la kot. They are big for a reason, sooooooo yea

Lagipun, I've enough experience working with small firms (previously lol), so I wanna know how big firms operate pulak.

Di samping jadi modal riak kalau orang tanya keje kat mana jkjk

Dan, the fact that aku tak pernah pun try apply kat big firm.

Ntah apa la yang Mirza ni takut sangat. Rejection mungkin.

Suddenly it hits me, the firms belum reject aku lagi, kenapa nak reject diri sendiri dulu?

Long story short, I've secured my place in one of the big firms. Wihu proud me.

Of course, I've been rejected here and there while going through the process of applying into big firms. Alah, tak yah cakap big firms lah, small firms pun rijek ngko sksksksk

But, I get to overcome my fear of rejection.

It's not as bad as it sounds. I promise.

Rejection is a redirection.

Kan?

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And, Mirza yang dahulu rendah diri dan terasa kecil di tempat orang-orang hebat, tidaklah automatik rasa konfiden dan rasa layak duduk bawah satu bumbung dan berdiri satu baris dengan somebody somebody ni

Masih humble dan rasa ianya adalah luck dan timing yang kena dengan kekosongan time itu.

I still have to prove myself that I am a qualified person to be in this position.

        ((Pulak tu kannnnnnnnnnnn, kenal okaaaayyyy siapa gerangan orang yang aku ganti.

        Bukan beshe-beshe. Uia jugak, budak perform. Aktif dalam Johore Bar pulak. Haiz

        ni namanya gali lubang kubur sendiri....))

Let's strive for the first 6 months, for the sake of probation hahaaha

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Neway, harini genap 2 bulan since my long call day :)

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(lvl2 photographer ek gambar ini)

Chapt.5 S2 : The End